This past Sunday I was battling homesickness thinking of Halloween festivities we will miss. And with the holidays just around the corner, I know its not going to get much easier. We are staying here for Thanksgiving (as it is right before Finals) and we just booked flights to Oklahoma for Christmas. We'll get to come home around New Years and for Matt's wedding, but that seems so far away (and who cares about New Years anymore?) I admit I moped around that whole afternoon, trying to convince myself to cheer up knowing it was only fair to spend time with Will's family. Besides, I asked him what he'd rather have for Christmas -- a TV or a trip to Oklahoma, and I admit I was surprised when he said Oklahoma.
Now in my heart I know that home is really wherever Willie and Olivia are, but it doesn't mean that I don't miss you guys and your cute kiddos like crazy! I think becoming a mom has made me more of a home-body, wanting to be close to my family. Well Mom, I'm now a bit more understanding of all the homesickness you have gone through!
Oh Lizzy... You are not the only one! I miss you too!!! And don't apologize for writing a "downer", sharing difficulties keeps us close. Everyone has their trials, they just look different.
ReplyDeleteOne thing that helps me on down days is to pretend that my boys are all grown up and on missions and that I got to use a time machine to travel back to one random day of their babyhood. And I pretend that today is that day. I try to treat every moment like I will wake up tomorrow and they will be gone. It doesn't make the difficulties go away, or even easier to deal with necessarily. It just helps me appreciate my greatest blessings in the "now". It's a happy distraction from other cares.
And you know, with hindsight, some of our greatest struggles often become the most sacred and treasured experiences of our lives if we use them to draw closer to the Savior. Oh how I need Him... I love you Lizzy!!! You are in my prayers!!!
Oh, Lizzy, I miss you too! I suppose that has already been evident because of my random tears at Rachel's house. :) But seriously, I think all of us are more attached to each other now that we have kids! I know it will be SUPER hard if Cesar and I end up moving away for school. It seems like this is just the beginning of all the kids taking turns moving away. But, I LOVED Emmy's advice! I'm going to try that in my life as well, because I'm not very good at living in the "now." I just want you to know I love you and I think of you often! I will try to follow up that thinking of you with a phone call. :) I love you!!!
ReplyDeleteThanks Ladies. Em, your advice came in handy today when Livvy had PB&J EVERYWHERE and was throwing the remainders of her sandwich across the room. I couldn't help but laugh when I thought of how I would miss this mess one day. Five minutes later I turn around and she is passed out in her high chair, holding a piece of cheese. She was a little ragdoll (or sloppy girl), completely oblivious to my wiping her off (as best as I could) and taking her to her crib. Today is a pretty good day.
ReplyDeleteOh Lizzy, that is a funny story--passing out in the high chair. I can just see it now, she is so cute when she sleeps! I really do miss you guys too. I'm so glad I got to Livvy yell at us yesterday! It is a voice that brings smiles to both Shelby and me. :)
ReplyDeleteI like Em's point about drawing closer to the Savior. It's weird that in looking back on times like these, we often say to ourselves: "That really was a good time of our lives, wasn't it?" And I think it's because we were closer to the Savior.
An we need to come visit the big L-town! That's all there is too it.